Au revoir , 2009 .

“ For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words awaits another voice . ”

Hello pretty faces ♥

I shall not let anything ruin my day since this is going to be the last post of the year . Will minus off all those negative thoughts that i've been having lately over friendships . Other than that , today shall be an awesome day :D Gosh , everything seems to end so quickly this year . Is it just me or does everyone else feel the same ? Mhmmmm . Within a blink of an eye when the clock strikes 12 today , we will all step into a whole new year . New beginnings ahead of us , new hopes , new believes , new people , new memories :) I can't wait to finally get over 2009 , what about you ? Heh .

I must admit 2009 has been a really sucky year for me . I've been through way to many "downs" compared to the "ups" i've been having :O Went through several bumpy times together with suemay and xuann but hey , we're still awesome friends till now right ? It certainly made our friendship grew stronger , heh . Not forgetting the bond between me and chan pek see , haha . Didn't really had a proper date with yiva but atleast we managed to have a short yam cha session once before PMR , heh . I'm glad that renee's sleepover turned into a reality and i can't help being hyper over finally being able to see her every week next year since we'll be learning dancing together (Y) i love you babes the most , L .

Well , haven't been really close to sayang lately . I dont know why , but i hope nothing changed between us . Same goes to miyi , lol . But i know nothing will change between us la , haha ! Keesiao partners forever , x . It's been long since we CALL last hang out together :O Gosh , i miss those times we had last year together a heck loads :( & i missed out on the outing with the 6N mates , big boohoo .

Although 2009 has been a really sucky year for me , but it's also one of the best years i've had in my whole entire secondary school life . Atleast for now , haha :) All those outings we had , i feel so loved . I'm blessed with so many awesome people in my life who has contributed in putting a smile on my face everyday in every way and i thank god for that ♥

I won't recap all those memories i had this year 'cause i'm afraid i might cry writing , lol . Well , even reading renee's post made me cry so i can't picture myself writing something like that . I don't need to recap anything since everything is locked in my mind , plus i have an archieve to refer too ! So , no recap of year 2009 :)

Will be celebrating new year's eve @ Restaurant Extra Super Tanker again with daddy's friends , teehee . Am looking forward to meeting up with them later , hah :D although there won't be any fireworks , but there will be people i love having fun with next to me so it's kinda more than enough to me :)

Lastly , here's something that everyone should bare in mind tonight -
“ Drop last year into the silent limbo of the past . Let it go , for it was imperfect . ”

HAVE A WONDERFUL NIGHT , much loves .

As the days goes by .

Hello ,

So today was CHS Orientation Day , teehee . I've got nothing much to say actually , lol . Oh oh , i've been hiding my frinch for almost a week now , but today , i finally failed :O

I was running late for band this morning and i had no time to clip my hair up , so i just let it be hoping that i have time to clip it up in school . Who knew there was this major traffic jam in federal highway and i was seriously in deep running late shit , crap . I ran straight up to band room once i arrived school . I wasn't late , thank god . Alison was already waiting infront of the door with the clock on her hands , haha . I was just in time yo , lucky me :D but well , everyone saw my frinch . Pfft , they said it wasn't that bad but i still hate it . LOL ! It disgust me , eww .

After our performance , i had duty in recruiting new members for next year together with shi hui . Well , obviously i did most of the talking ;x No offence , but next year's form ones are going to be a bunch of noobs . As sir said , teenagers nowadays are getting way immature by the year . I agree , coughs :P i came across several kids who showed me the roll eye / walked away while i was talking to them , rude much ? Pissed me off , but i had to protect band's image so i still smiled and say thank you .

Hey , it's not an everyday thing to see me going up to some random stranger hence talking to them like i'm into them okay . I mean , i hate meeting new people unless your really really hot nice :) And yet those lil kids still don't know how to appreciate this chance and gives me some stuck up attitude . ROAR , better watch out next year -.o

Went to office to slack after that , helped mummy finish up the pink ribbon wellness camp video and chatted with babe yiva on msn at the same time . I'm still not done with the video yet , oops . Went to summit later on , bought new school uniforms :D

I suppose that's all ? Lifeless as always , i know .

Oh well , december isn't my month so bare with me . My life is messed up enough thank you , i don't need anymore comments . I shall end this post by presenting you a super duper hilarious picture (Y)

okay , so maybe it's not jay chou , coughs . LOL !
but it kinda looks a little like him right ?
a tiny winy lil bit ? teehee :)

HAHA , FREAKING MADE ME LAUGH MY ASS OFF .




P/s : i love you chow yiva .

When your fifteen ♥

I was suppose to update about my birthday today .
By the looks of it , i guess not :O

I've already started working on the pictures and have already planned what to write , but mhmmm . Changed of plans , maybe next time :) Fyi , i had 4 birthday celebrations :D so it'll be a heck of a long post , haha . If you think your awesome than wait for it ! Or else , go bang wall die lorh :P

It's definitely something i'd spare time to blog about 'cause this year's the most memorable birthday i've had ! Both good and bad ways ofcourse :O Especially the 2nd celebration i had in One U , supposedly together with peksi , eugene , shengyang , yukai & terence . Sadly things change , people change . I suppose it was meant to be that way ? Seriously , you have no idea how unforgetable that day was for me . I cried a river full of realisation tears , i'm glad i did . It certainly woke me up from every single fantasy thinking i had . All those believes , gone . Things were destined to happen that way , but it's not the end . At least not just yet , it won't end as long as i'm still breathing . Bare that in mind , you can't get rid of me that easily . Our friendship is not something for you to just throw away whenever you feel like it , pfft . Unless you give me one good acceptable reason / explanation , than i might consider :) I said might .

I'm 15 , it's about time i realised that i'm living in the real hectic world and not just some stupid never ending happily ever after fairy tale . I had enough of getting pushed around , it's my turn to stand strong and prevent my ownself from falling down now . I know , and i've woke up from believing that dreams do come true and the whole true friendship lasts a whole life mind set thank you . You've knocked my head real hard this time alright , i'll remember this forever .

I HATE PRINCESS AND THE FROG , coughs .

Till then , x .

Let's be naughty and save Santa the trip , teehee .

Oh , boohoo :P

I asked for elves , but i didn't get any :( I suppose santa thinks i hadn't been a good girl . But i was right ? I mean i still am , c'mon ! *shows innocent face* Okay , enough crapping . So i'm lame , sue me -_____- Coughs , i think i sort of gotten over the PMR thingy , not . Daddy still ain't talking to me :( & i can kinda still tear if someone asks me " how's pmr ? " Mhmmmm :(

Since i'm bored , and is kinda in the mood . You'll know why soon , teehee ! I figured i should update , lol . Plus , everyone's been pestering me again . Coughs :O

25th of December , Friday -

Received gifts during christmas yo ! My very first actually :) Okay , maybe not ! LOL . But it is my very first time getting so many gifts , teehee . Okay , so maybe 4 isn't many but it's alot to me . I mean i don't celebrate christmas and yet i get gifts , so i appreciate them alot ! Feel so loved , me likey yo :D

1) Teddy bear from mummy :)
2) Stockings & Ear rings from yan yi :) :)
3) Cute erasers from jeannie yi yi i think , lol ? Oops :D
4) Teddy bear & the cute rudolph soap thingy that suemay didn't give me from elliana :D :D
Anyways , went to daddy's friends's christmas party at Restaurant Extra Super Tanker . It's an every year thing , teehee . So like every other year , we all ate together and then our daddy's would be busy drinking / laughing out loud as though they own the place / chit - chat / drink even more / laugh even more / chit - chat even more / you get what i mean la , & our mummy's would be busy talking about women stuff , hahahah . We the kids talked as well but we played most of the time , lol ! This year we played uno stacko yo , haha ! It was just for a short while though and we continued playing bluff . LOL ! We were the latest to arrive and also the latest to leave , haha . And we only left 'cause us kids got bored and started pestering out parents to bring us home , hahahah !

It's nice catching up with them once in a blue moon , heh . As beverlea said , this year is the awesome-iest 'cause we get to meet up so many times . Hahahahah , we're meeting up again during new years eve ! Well , hopefully :/

Oh oh , guess what else ?

I SAW KUOK WEI YO :D :D

What a small world kan ? He's my dad's friend's son's aka julien's friend's brother , hahahahah :P Complicated ? Not really , hah . Apparently he saw me during last year's christmas party too but he didn't know me then , oh well :(



Cedric & Sean :)



Jasmine , Beverlea & Myself :)



Bev & Myself :)



Cedric & Sean again :)



Bev & Myself once more :)
Yeah , i wore red :D Gives your the christmas spirit kan ? I know :P too bad i didn't get a picture of myself wearing a christmas hat , it'll be so awesome . Awwww D:

26th of December , Saturday -



Got myself a hair cut since school's about to reopen soon . Can you imagine it ? One more week of holidays left :( It feels like yesterday pmr just ended , gosh . Time flies when your having fun :) I could picture it in my mind right now , all those memories flowing through . Mhmmm , lovely :)

My fringe makes me look retarded :'( Since abel said i was already retarded , let's put it this way . My fringe makes me look way retarded :'( :'(

Pfft !

Anyways , celebrated my cousins advance birthday later on at night . We pranked msn on random people , lol . No no , it started off with people we know than after that strangers who added us . Wtf -___________- Her name is Lydia Tan i forgotten what , lol . She's 18 and she's a freak _l_ Major weirdo , i swear ! Totally made a fool out of herself much , we were all laughing out loud infront of the comp . Sadly , birthday pictures aren't with me . So probably next time , depends on my mood :P

27th of December , Sunday -

Had dance class in the morning , latin today :) Stupid shoes , freaking kills me to dance . Roar , can't wait to get new pairs . Went to One U after that to watch Avatar with the yong family ! Now this is the reason why i had mood and wanted to blog :D



Rate 10 / 10 , gold star !
Freaking awesome movie yo , you should go bang wall if you dislike that movie ! It's so damn meaningful la please , it's time to wake up humans :) I wished i could be an Avatar for just 10 minutes and feel how it's like to fly way up in the sky not being afraid of seeing the world . Oh , i just simply love that movie ! Although it's 2.30 hours but it's still awesome :D Beawesome in fact ! *claps for the director*

Had dinner together with them as well at some uptown restaurant which serves awfully delicious duck , friend rice and hokkien me :D

Before i end this post ,

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Thank me yo , help you promote :P joking , lol .

Shall leave now , gotta ring peksi up since she's been dying to talk to me the whole night ! Okay , maybe it's only me :P Mhmmmmm , who knows ? Make a good guess then ! Bye loves .

This the season to be jolly .

Lets start with , PMR results _l_

Mine wasn't exactly pleasant so stop asking . It sucked larh , pfft . Things didn't really turned out as planned , i was expecting 7a's & 1e k . Screw sejarah , lol . Thank god i didn't fail , huh ? What a stupid thing to say , urgh . Wait , i haven't got to the main point yet . I ended up having the same results as rtyc you know ?! If you really want to know what i got , ask him ! & he didn't bother to study at all la fyi , i studied my ass off k :( My parents would probably give me a *rolls eye* now , mhmmm . Everyone gave me the " are you freaking sure ? go remark , it's impossible ! " shock stare once they saw my paper , ftw . I seriously can't believe it , neither could everyone else . I don't think a remark would help since your paying like rm30 each paper for an A zz The worst thing is , daddy didn't scold me at all , not even a single word out of his mouth . Wtfomgbbq woi , i can sense a broken heart . I disappointed everyone , even myself . Wtheck :(

Art's class - Hello CHS , Science class - Bye bye CHS or O levels - Hello ACE , Bye bye CHS ?
Mhmmmm , decisions that marks my future .

I don't want to screw up anymore , i hate this feeling and i do not want to relive this moment . Heck no , i rather die ! I'll sacrifice everything & anything for SPM , i swear .

:'(

Okay , so i shall not let that ruin my christmas mood . Mhmmmm , it felt really awkard putting on my school uniform again yesterday . LOL ! you know what ? i lost weight yo :D :D i need to get new school uniforms since mine kinda sort of shrank and makes me look fat , wheee . Oh , and it was awesome meeting the chs sakai's again :) Heh , i miss them so much ! Gosh , it's been so long since we last camwhore in school uniform together :(

Good friends are like stars .
you don't always see them , but you know that they're always there .



♥'s
Obviously all of the above was taken before we receive our PMR results , i was crying all the way even untill we reached sunway office for the pre-christmas-eve-celebration larhh . Like c'mon , which ass gets over disappointment so easily just by camwhoring :O coughs , not me la . wtheck ?! Even being super happy to finally get to see suemay , xuann , miyi & the others again couldn't top the sadness i had , sob .

Received quite a number of cheer up messages :) Hmmm , thanks yo ! You know i love you guys till bits . I suppose i'll get over this matter soon , not :/ Special thanks to stephanie , haha . Tell me again why shouldn't i love my 4 awesome ex-clarinet-seniors ? Hahahhahhahah .

Had turkey for lunch yesterday , it tasted good ! We exchanged gifts , it felt really good la . I don't usually celebrate christmas , idk why they suddenly decided to have that party @ sunway office yesterday . LOL , but it was a good :)



So i've not been blogging and has privated my blog lately , teehee . I've got my own personal reasons thank you :/ I must say it's been a terrible december , ftw . The far most miserable one in fact , i've never felt so down in the months of december i've ever had before in my 15 years living on earth .

I know i've made some promises after pmr that hasn't been kept till now , it's a few more days to 2010 and i hadn't really fixed my messy blog posts ;o I doubt that i'll get any chance , lol . It's been a busy holiday packed with tons of ups and downs . Some i'd like to remember forever & some i'd wished i could forget right now but can't . Sigh :)

I wish i could turn back time and start over again , make the right decisions and not falling over broken steps , but i guess not . No use crying over spilt milk uhh ? As chee yung said , step on them and walk on . Heh , nice one :D

So what if december didn't turned out to be exactly great , roar . I must say i gained loads of memories this holidays , tons of awesome ones . Thank you all for giving me a blessed holiday , much appreciated . Seriously , especially to chan pek see :) I really do hope everything will go as planned for next year , fingers crossed yo .

I'd like to apologize too , uhmmm . Sorry eunice , i know i promised to go out with you but hadn't got a chance :( & also to shweta , oh gosh :( To my precious sayang and the other chs sakai's , i'm terribly sorry i didn't really get to spent time with you guys this holidays .

YIVA , i miss you really badly , i wish i could meet up with you now before my heart breaks into billion of pieces . i don't think i can take it anymore hunn , i need to see you . i've got tons of things to spill :'(

There's seriously too many la , aww . I'm an infinity times sorry , roar :( I screwed up tons of plans - class trip , sleepovers , catch up sessions etc . Oh boo :( I'm afraid clarinet bbq party would be a thrown down too :'( Oh , let there be miracles please .

I DIDN'T GET TO MEET UP WITH MY 6N MATES LA , IT'S BEEN 3 LONG YEARS ! CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED LAGOON TRIP , FTWROARPFFT .

I feel like crying all of a sudden again , but i kinda sort of ran out of tears since i've been crying over nearly everything lately , hmmph :'(

I've got plenty to update la , rahhh . I know i hadn't blog about my birthday , i will soon . & i know i've been MIA on both facebook & msn lately , went for some band exchange in s'pore and just got back on wednesday morning la . C'mon , give me a break ! Met some new friends there , most of them were awesome . I repeat , most of them , not all :) *points purple colour hairband girl aka pms b*tch NQ*

Mhmmm , what else ?

I RAN OUT OF WORDS LARH .

Anyways ,



I'll start updating again , i swear . Once i've clam down and is finally able to think straight and be happy again :) It's been long since i last gave a true smile , heh . Don't give up on me dear readers , please ? At least not now .

I need you best friend , why you had to turn your back on me ?

Singapore trip ♥

GROUP #1 ROCKS .



FORM 3 / 2009 ROCKS MORE !



CHS WOODWIND ROCKS EVEN MORE :D



JJB , PEIRCE & CHS CLARINET SECTION ROCKS WAY MORE :P



BUT STILL , CHS CLARINET SECTION ROCKS MOST
Just got back from singapore's band interaction , camp reverie was totally awesome :) Met loads of awesome people too and it was definitely double the awesomeness finally being able to fool around together with joyce and stephanie again . I must say , this trip brought many wonderful experience to me and ofcourse way more splendid memories although camwhoring and being loud was kinda sort of a crime , (L) .

Confusion , if only you knew .

I'M SDF EMO , (N) .
it's amazing how a best friend could turn into a total stranger in such a short period of time .
i miss you best friend , a heck loads & i wished you knew .

Someone's turning a year older .

or i'll at least try ;)

SO SOMEONE TURNED FIFTEEN TODAY & THAT SOMEOVE IS OBVIOUSLY ME :P I CAN FINALLY SING TAYLOR SWIFT'S FIFTEEN IN PEACE :D



HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED TWIN(s) RACHEL HO & AMYLIA SHARIF TOO ♥ :)

i'd like to dedicate this song to us , yay .
Taylor Swifts's Fifteen , let's enjoy this while we still can babes :D



" 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you you're gonna believe them . When you're fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin 'round ♥ "

I'm going to rant for once , yay .

Hello , i decided to blog 'cause i think today is a day that should be remembered since it's so awfully dramatic . I must said i nearly teared loads of time today , i got lots in my mind now .

I think bad karma finally caught me , coughs .

It's gonna be a long post with only words btw , so you can leave now if your not into words . Just bare with me larhhh . I mean come on , how often do i rant ? Hah !

Anyways , the day started off on the road where i was rushing for band practice since mummy woke up late . I was already running late and yet the car went out of fuel so we had to spare another few minutes to pump patrol , pfft ! Obviously i was late , geez .

We had official band practice today after god knows how long & it sucked , terribly :/ Fyi , we've only got another 3 more official practice before we leave for our s'pore interaction . Big sigh , lol .

So half way tonguing i-forgotten-what-song , i accidentally cut my tongue with my reed and it started bleeding . I only realised it when sir asked us to tongue the stupid christmas song , apparently our staccato wasn't light enough . I'm just gonna translate what he said into english to make everything seem easy , lol . He shaked his head and said " you guys better pratice if you don't want to get scolding on your birthday "

WONDERFUL , he remembered my birthday but what he said isn't something to be happy about . Everyone gave me that stare after he said that , sigh :/

Anyways , i knew my tongue got cut but i thought it was nothing serious since it was just a little blood stain on my reed . But after trying so hard to tongue lightly , i started tasting blood in mouth , rofl . In my mind , i was like " who cares , just keep tonguing alyssa . sir's already so pissed off , you can't possibly stop now . " So like some dumb ass , i continued tonguing the stupid song , lol . After tonguing the same thing over and over again for about 4-5 times , sir finally asked us to stop and said " let's just cancel this song . " and i went " great , lol " jayne turned to me and said " eww , your bleeding " & i went " i know , ahahahhahahah " .

YAY ME , ROFL !

i suppose she saw something that looks like this :



AWESOME , NO ?

I think it's kinda awesome that i managed to tahan such pain lorhhhhh , rofl :) So yeah , my tongue continued bleeding for the rest of the day . Hahahah ! I got blood on my shirt , teehee . Oh oh , and instead of saliva dripping out of my clarinet , it was blood . Everyone find it extremely disgusting , but i personally find it extremely cool . It's kinda amazing how i white tissue could turn into a bloody one just by playing the clarinet :D

So i'm weird , sue me :P

I'M STILL TASTING BLOOD IN MY MOUTH EVERY NOW AND THEN BY THE WAY , HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA :D :D :D

Where was i again ?

Aaah , we got scolded during gather :/ I honestly feel bad , i never used to had this feeling ever before in band . For once i was afraid , lol . I suppose i'm starting to feel a certain responsibility now , and i got a feeling that if i don't do things right i'll regret . Uhhh :'(

Gah , moving on .

So it was lunch time . We went to kanna for lunch , i wanted to save money and i didn't really had a big appetite than so i ordered roti planta tambah gula . & i specifically said TAMBAH GULA but the worker gave me roti planta TANPA GULA . like ftwbbqroar , freaking spoiled my mood -_____________-

Oh oh , i have already lost my mood half way during practice when peksi texted me and said that she couldn't sleep over no more btw :)

As i was saying , i lost my mood . So i was grumpy , rofl . & that stupid nai nai still went and mess with my mood . But oddly i didn't shout at him like i always used to everytime he tried to make me feel bad / insult me . I just smiled and looked away , i guess you can say i ignored him or something like that . Miracles , i know .

It was EGM after that , nothing much . You zhi gave us souveniors from japan after dismiss . It's so freaking cute , i'll show it off to you some other time :P

Mummy picked me up not long after , i told her my tongue was bleeding ! She didn't give much of a reaction though , i was expecting somthing like " OMG , WHY ?! " but oh well :/ she then told me that there's going to be 3 birthday bash in tropicana tomorrow , and i went " oh , great..." but that news didn't turn me up side down though 'cause i know mummy will do everything to get me pleased , heh . I'm spoiled in a good way :D

So she called the person - in - charge and managed to work things out , i'm greatful for that . But you know , i'm not always lucky . So when i came back and turned on facebook , peksi left me a message saying she won't be back till 5 in the evening tomorrow .

GREAT , i have to replan everything .

guess what else ?

I got band practice tomorrow from 8.30am - 4.30pm , i don't mind that . I've already got over that but i'm also having dance class from 2-5pm , ftw . How am i suppose to at two place at the same time ? Screw that larh , gosh .

NOT ONLY THAT ALRIGHT .

The guys are sleeping over tomorrow after the last minute chin chai b'day celebration at tropicana tomorrow but i've got dance class the next day from 10-12am too , damn .

TELL ME WHAT TO DO LA ?! I ONLY WANT A FREAKING SIMPLE HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION BUT EVERYTHING/ANYTHING IS GETTING IN MY WAY !

!~#%^())&^$#!$%^*(() , ROAR .

You know what , i give up . I'm just gonna let my mum decide everything _l_ Tomorrow's gonna be like every other day , nothing special , nothing to be worth remembering .

JUST YAY EVERYTHING , I'M DONE RANTING . BYE :)

What a way to remember my birthday .

Click to enlarge .

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At this very point of time in the year 2008 , when my birthday was around the corner and i was busy being excited over my birthday plans . I tried to put on the best birthday bash ever for myself and everyone else , been preparing since forever . But while i was about to start with my grocery shopping , something went wrong and we had an arguement . Every single thing between us changed ever since then but we managed to work things out , or atleast i thought so .

& it's happening again , why ? :/

" I remebered it like it was yesterday when you had probably already forgotten it the next day after i said " it's okay , no big deal . i'm fine " . "

Desperately in need of fairy tales .

I WANT TO WATCH PRINCESS & THE FROG D:

Anger .

Pissed Off .

facebook is driving me insane , it's being such an ass . It's not allowing me to upload a single damn freaking picture of Salsa Cruise Asia . It's been god knows how long , freaking failed me 12345,000 times _l_

Super Junior's - Sorry sorry , lol .

BBQ & SLEEPOVER :)
Will edit this soon , i've made no promises .

x.

Meanwhile ,


HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOW MI YI ♥ :D

Spill the beans .

I ♥ MY GIRLFRIEND(S) till tiny bits .
& i'm starting to miss them already , all of 'em .

Take note : I've lost my blogging mojo , so don't expect too much from me .

Hello hello loves !

So i know i've not been a really responsible blogger to update my blog and have instead turned into an extremely lazy blogger , coughs . & i told myself i'll take care of my blog after PMR since i'll be having all the time i need , oops ! thank god i never made any promises , or have i ? Mhmm *scratches head* ;)

I'm not in the mood lately , i mean after i came back of cruise of course . I'm having a really hard time to sleep , i'm having an even hard time trying to breathe ! I'm sick you see , and my nose , their not really being useful to produce me with enough of oxygen to stay awake ever since monday :'(

I spent the whole tuesday trying to transfer the pictures taken on cruise into my comp so that i could upload them on facebook since everyone's been bugging me for 'em . Yesterday , i managed to transfer then upload all the sleepovers/outing pictures into facebook after failing 3-5 times :'( In the afternoon , i just so happen to be lucky and found some old taiwan drama series that has been laying around in my bunch of dvd staked like mountains upstairs since god knows when , geez . So i've been sitting in front of the tv on my couch watching it .



Corner With Love .

Uhmmm , quite nice la . Loads of talking , crying etc . etc . Taiwan drama's are all the same , boh bian . But i personally like the story line , teehee . Wanna know why more ? Go watch / google it yourself ! Fyi , i finished watching it today & i figured , since i have nothing better to do now , and my mind's feeling a 'lil fresher today , why not update my blog ? :)

Anyways , i'm hoping that it will make it up to all of you , not :O nothing much to update actually , lol . I'm pretty sure you guys are not interested to read about what i've been doing lately & looking through all those camwhore pictures i've took right ?

But if you insist , oh well :) Come back later in the evening around 6-7pm & Click here , for the update about renee's sleepover and outing @ sunway pyramid the next day :D otherwise , i guess you have to find other blog's to read 'cause i certainly do not know what else to blog about . Sorry , bye :'(

P/s - SUEMAY , I HOPE YOU DON ' T QUIT BLOGGING D:

B'day shout out !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEN ROU ANNE ♥ :D

i can't find a decent picture of us , lol . my computer cacated , pictures we took in the car unavailable :( so i just grab this from facebook , joyce suprise birthday celebration album :P which reminds me , the card ! gosh :O anyways , you've been an awesome friend rouanne , teehee . although we've only known eachother for a year , not even a year actually but who cares ! there's definately more to come right ♥ i love your smile , haha . it's like super sweet and it so totally suits you . some rouanne copyrighted smile :D i enjoyed every single moment of being friends with you , hah . all those times we had in the car together with joyce , never ending laughters , i'm so gonna miss them loads after you guys leave chs :'( i'm starting to miss them already laa actually D:

hope you'll have a blast today & may all your dreams come true yo .
you know i love you , teehee ♥ ;)

'cause you don't know , that's why .

i wish i knew how i really wanted to feel ,
'cause i'm currently caught in between all my billions of emotions .

& i just can't seem to figure them out right ,
which emotions to use in which time and all ?

life seems to be so complicated in every way , no ?

everything is happening in the wrong time ,
why now ? why happen ?

it's all about to fall apart soon ,
i can sense it .

& my prediction's are always right when things like this happens .

everything feels so insecure now ,
i guess i'm just..

LOST , again .

x.



there won't be any birthday celebrations this year , so stop asking .
& NO why' s please and thank you !

i know i'll regret , but i don't want sleepless night thinking of who to invite/how to make it a memorable day . it's not gonna be worth remembering if someone's gonna ruin it like every other birthday's i had .

i'm gonna receive tons of lame excuses , thinking of a bunch of reasons not to be there . saying it's too far , that they go out too often & their parents out of no where decided not to let them attend my birthday etc . etc . etc . i've heard them all before , every single year . you gotta do better than that to pull it off , you better think of something good to cover up the lie/excuse reason . that is if i suddenly changed my mind and decided to celebrate and you were invited although i know you'll be the one who doesn't wanna be there :)

2 things holding me back ,

1 . i've got band practice that day .
2 . both suemay & renee wouldn't be able to make it .

so tell me , why should i bother again ?

i hope everyone forgets my birthday , & it could just be like every other day of the year .
'cause it doesn't matter , i wish i could get over with it already .