This the season to be jolly .

Lets start with , PMR results _l_

Mine wasn't exactly pleasant so stop asking . It sucked larh , pfft . Things didn't really turned out as planned , i was expecting 7a's & 1e k . Screw sejarah , lol . Thank god i didn't fail , huh ? What a stupid thing to say , urgh . Wait , i haven't got to the main point yet . I ended up having the same results as rtyc you know ?! If you really want to know what i got , ask him ! & he didn't bother to study at all la fyi , i studied my ass off k :( My parents would probably give me a *rolls eye* now , mhmmm . Everyone gave me the " are you freaking sure ? go remark , it's impossible ! " shock stare once they saw my paper , ftw . I seriously can't believe it , neither could everyone else . I don't think a remark would help since your paying like rm30 each paper for an A zz The worst thing is , daddy didn't scold me at all , not even a single word out of his mouth . Wtfomgbbq woi , i can sense a broken heart . I disappointed everyone , even myself . Wtheck :(

Art's class - Hello CHS , Science class - Bye bye CHS or O levels - Hello ACE , Bye bye CHS ?
Mhmmmm , decisions that marks my future .

I don't want to screw up anymore , i hate this feeling and i do not want to relive this moment . Heck no , i rather die ! I'll sacrifice everything & anything for SPM , i swear .

:'(

Okay , so i shall not let that ruin my christmas mood . Mhmmmm , it felt really awkard putting on my school uniform again yesterday . LOL ! you know what ? i lost weight yo :D :D i need to get new school uniforms since mine kinda sort of shrank and makes me look fat , wheee . Oh , and it was awesome meeting the chs sakai's again :) Heh , i miss them so much ! Gosh , it's been so long since we last camwhore in school uniform together :(

Good friends are like stars .
you don't always see them , but you know that they're always there .



♥'s
Obviously all of the above was taken before we receive our PMR results , i was crying all the way even untill we reached sunway office for the pre-christmas-eve-celebration larhh . Like c'mon , which ass gets over disappointment so easily just by camwhoring :O coughs , not me la . wtheck ?! Even being super happy to finally get to see suemay , xuann , miyi & the others again couldn't top the sadness i had , sob .

Received quite a number of cheer up messages :) Hmmm , thanks yo ! You know i love you guys till bits . I suppose i'll get over this matter soon , not :/ Special thanks to stephanie , haha . Tell me again why shouldn't i love my 4 awesome ex-clarinet-seniors ? Hahahhahhahah .

Had turkey for lunch yesterday , it tasted good ! We exchanged gifts , it felt really good la . I don't usually celebrate christmas , idk why they suddenly decided to have that party @ sunway office yesterday . LOL , but it was a good :)



So i've not been blogging and has privated my blog lately , teehee . I've got my own personal reasons thank you :/ I must say it's been a terrible december , ftw . The far most miserable one in fact , i've never felt so down in the months of december i've ever had before in my 15 years living on earth .

I know i've made some promises after pmr that hasn't been kept till now , it's a few more days to 2010 and i hadn't really fixed my messy blog posts ;o I doubt that i'll get any chance , lol . It's been a busy holiday packed with tons of ups and downs . Some i'd like to remember forever & some i'd wished i could forget right now but can't . Sigh :)

I wish i could turn back time and start over again , make the right decisions and not falling over broken steps , but i guess not . No use crying over spilt milk uhh ? As chee yung said , step on them and walk on . Heh , nice one :D

So what if december didn't turned out to be exactly great , roar . I must say i gained loads of memories this holidays , tons of awesome ones . Thank you all for giving me a blessed holiday , much appreciated . Seriously , especially to chan pek see :) I really do hope everything will go as planned for next year , fingers crossed yo .

I'd like to apologize too , uhmmm . Sorry eunice , i know i promised to go out with you but hadn't got a chance :( & also to shweta , oh gosh :( To my precious sayang and the other chs sakai's , i'm terribly sorry i didn't really get to spent time with you guys this holidays .

YIVA , i miss you really badly , i wish i could meet up with you now before my heart breaks into billion of pieces . i don't think i can take it anymore hunn , i need to see you . i've got tons of things to spill :'(

There's seriously too many la , aww . I'm an infinity times sorry , roar :( I screwed up tons of plans - class trip , sleepovers , catch up sessions etc . Oh boo :( I'm afraid clarinet bbq party would be a thrown down too :'( Oh , let there be miracles please .

I DIDN'T GET TO MEET UP WITH MY 6N MATES LA , IT'S BEEN 3 LONG YEARS ! CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED LAGOON TRIP , FTWROARPFFT .

I feel like crying all of a sudden again , but i kinda sort of ran out of tears since i've been crying over nearly everything lately , hmmph :'(

I've got plenty to update la , rahhh . I know i hadn't blog about my birthday , i will soon . & i know i've been MIA on both facebook & msn lately , went for some band exchange in s'pore and just got back on wednesday morning la . C'mon , give me a break ! Met some new friends there , most of them were awesome . I repeat , most of them , not all :) *points purple colour hairband girl aka pms b*tch NQ*

Mhmmm , what else ?

I RAN OUT OF WORDS LARH .

Anyways ,



I'll start updating again , i swear . Once i've clam down and is finally able to think straight and be happy again :) It's been long since i last gave a true smile , heh . Don't give up on me dear readers , please ? At least not now .

I need you best friend , why you had to turn your back on me ?